I went to see a Lama speak last night and it was amazing because for the first time in two years I actually felt like there was another person who lives their life by the laws of absolute truths found within through meditation. It was very beautiful.

I want to do a comprehensive study of current socialcultural sanctions and rituals on drug use. From Alcohol to Ecstasy. There was an awesome one done in 1977 but I believe it has become a little outdated.

http://www.druglibrary.org/schaffer/lsd/zinsubcl.htm


if anyone would like to help tell me.

Metta
Jules

The belief that monetary gain is a greater drive to progress then humanitarianism and truth discovery is the heart of pessimisms and soul of nihilism.

I can honestly say I am a despiser of political activists who are not humanitarianisms. Inversely I would give all my time and money to a humanitarian activist who cared nothing of politics.

"Let this be your greatest joy - to give people back to themselves - to help them remember Who They Really Are."

It is the responsibility of those awake to protect those who still sleep till they wake.



Oh yeah, it is 2009! heh. I never thought I was gonna live this long. I guess I didn't really, all of me that believed that passed away long ago; all that is left is the shell that once housed him but filled with something much more beautiful. I love You.


Metta
Jules

I had two weird dreams last night

One about bodyboarding in the ocean. I was completely free. Riding kinetic waves forcing themselves through the most abundant malleable medium on the plant. I love science.

One about driving a motorcycle through a giant university and having a conversation with a leper about how I wasn't shocked to see him with no legs just as he was not shocked to see me riding a motorcycle in a building.

Also had a dream R. Nolan sent me a text message. Not sure where, when, or how that fits into any of my dreams but it was there.

Love it.
Love You.
Jules

It is a sad state of affairs that most people never live life. That most people live in a world constructed in their head instead of the real world. A world of controls and variables and laws they believe are solid and real and governing them from the outside. There are two laws in this world. Born and Die. Beyond those two we create it the way we want to. As Tibetan Buddhists say our mind is a crystal, clear and empty until we place it upon something. Live Life. Stop being the things you own and the things you feel and the things you want to be.

Because if we were all paralyzed, completely, we would still be something and it would be no different then what we are now. It would only seem different because of what we think we are now.

Much Love
Jules

"Life is easier when you can write off others as monsters, as demons, as horrible threats that must be hated and feared. The thing is, you can't do that with out becoming them, just a little."

~ White Night pg310

The most difficult thing about being aware of all the things in life that make pain and suffering in this world is to not let oneself pick up a gun to remove the things that perpetuate them.

Some days it is hard to remember that those who cause pain are suffering pain, some days it is hard to find the strength to remove their suffering with a scalpel instead of using power to destroy them, some days it feels easier to make someone pay then to help someone start again.

I have been asked many times what training in martial arts has to do with Buddhism and loving/kindness. I try to explain about understanding oneself and self control but you only understand how important it is to know how to hurt someone when you are trying not to. You only understand the true root of evil when you see it in yourself. You only understand how to extinguish evil when you have extinguished it in yourself.

Some days I just want to save the world in spite of itself.

I love You.
Jules

There is something quite amazing about the counter culture in America right now. There is a more than overwhelming majority in the USA that have little to no respect for the law or it's peace keepers. It began as a rebellion against the status quo, a desire for money and power and fame. It has evolved into something bigger now. It has become a society unto itself with it's own rules, laws, creeds, and social rituals. It has abandoned America because it believes it cannot change America to what they want it to be through democracy and it is rather apparent in any city in America where the police are afraid to tred, where the law of the land has no say in the law of the men. One day it is going to explode. I want to be there for that.

Peace.

...and a rainbow fell upon me. Hitting my crystal heart as a single stream of burning light and prismed out over my mind as waves of beauty and horror. Red flaming with anger, Yellow glowing with childlike joy, Blue as deep as a sorrow filled ocean, wave upon wave upon wave drowning me in overwhelming sensation. Then I wondered "where is black and where is white?" Looking down at my heart I saw. All of this was black and all of this was white. Non of this was real, I had obsorbed truth into my heart and i had split it into separate parts and I had believed they were real. As a wave of royal purple pain flowed over me I laughed and took it in because I finally understood. A gear is not a clock, neither is a transmission a car, neither is one emotion this life. But, a clock cannot be a clock with out all its' gears, a car cannot be a car with out its' transmission, so may this life not be life with out all it has to offer.

Let your mind be free and unattached to this world or to the next, or the previous or any. Be still and know and laugh.

metta
jules

I just realized that the evolution of the consciousness in man has changed us from viewing ourselves individually as an organism but rather collectively as an organ made up of many organisms. Seeing survival of the whole as more important then survival of the individual.

The Greatest Good For The Greatest Number.


Does our capacity to even be able to override the biological survivalist mechanisms inside ourselves for what we consider a greater cause for the greater good mean we have evolved to exist as compassionate creators or just that we have accidentally learned how to hack into ours and others minds and rewrite what we believe is survival. E.G. Suicide bombers going to heaven after death.

But taking into account those who do not believe they will be going anywhere at all but still give their life in order to save another or multiples. E.G. an Athiest saving a child from a burning building and dying in the process. Can we still believe the latter?

Does the existence of compassion mean the existence of an evolution into a collective entity, being both individual and hive like at the same time?

Interesting.

There is a little known story about the enlightenment of Siddhartha Gautama. After becoming enlightened he continued to sit beneath the Bodhi tree until the Gods came down from the Heavens and asked "why do you just sit here? You are the first in the history of time who has come to a state of pure mind, enlightenment. Even we, the Gods of all the Heavens have not achieved what you have. Why do you not go out into the world and share the jewel you have with the universe?" Upon hearing their question he quickly responded "99.9% of the universe will not understand what I have to give to them, they will misuse it. It will become a weapon they will wield against others, they will not achieve. Why should I go forth?" The Gods where dumbfounded, they did not know what to say. So they asked Siddhartha "May we convene in the empyreans with all the celestial beings and bring you a response?" Compassionately he agreed. After much time had passed the Gods returned with their reply "We cannot disagree with you, you are a Buddha and your wisdom is pure. 99.99% of the universe will not understand, they will misuse your teaching from their selfish gains and not obtain what you have obtained BUT .01% will and in all the universe in all the heavens is the possibility of one other obtaining what you have obtained not worth all those who will not? Is not the possibility of helping one end their continual suffering not worth the breath you will spend on the others" At this Siddhartha shed a tear of compassion, stud up, and walked to a village to teach his first sermon.

I had this wonderful conversation with my brother yesterday that prompted me to create a scientific proof to explain what people want.

In understanding that

1. all people live a life in the pursuit of happiness
2. all people live a life in the avoidance of suffering

In accepting that

1. Living a life based on that which is not real, a false reality or a lie, is detrimental to what all people are pursuing.
2. Living a life based on that which is real, reality, is not only beneficial but also the only way of achieving what all people pursue.

We must Deduce

1 All people seek to live a life based in that which is real, the truth.




This proof only stands if it's foundation is the general acceptance of

1) the close evolution of the human state of consciousness. Which must be conceded to if one is to accept the science of psychology.

and

2) that happiness is derived from having a reason for existence which can only be derived by abandoning everything that one believes is their reason for existence as conditioned into them by the current social order.

which only stands if

b) every person has an innate reason at their core which can only be reached through understand oneself in order to deduce the difference between what one truly wants and what one has been conditioned to want.

a) one accepts that a person will not pursue the search for understanding unless they do not understand.




This is no where near perfect and i will most likely expand this after I have actual time to do research into all the books I have and don't have yet in order to do citations and remove all the loop holes. Because, as it stands I have already found way to many for this to stand on it's own.

When you have spent your whole life full of hate and suffering anything short of love after that just doesn't feel real. It is like living with a hot poker in each of your feet only to have them removed one day and for the first time it does not hurt to be alive and you love everything and you love every one and you love every step because non if it hurts anymore.

Suicide is our generations equivalent metaphor to enlightenment, we see the darkness washing over us but more importantly we see the darkness washing over everything and there is nothing left; there is no mind. We are free. Further and further down the rabbit whole we wish to go, closer and closer to there but there is not where we want to be. We do not desire to cease to exist, we only desire to cease to exist in a state of being that is controlled by the constructs of our ego: fear, doubt, sadness, suffering, anger, hate, emptiness when we are full.

It is why drugs are so prevalent in our current culture. Any substance that puts a temporary hold on the outcry of our hearts, spirit, pure mind, consciousness, soul, what ever you want to call it is going to be the most widely used thing in a society that conditions us to kill ourselves by becoming something we are not. Man cannot expect people to be robots as we are told to be by our social structure and not have an existential crisis, not have a spiritual meltdown. We do not need meaning, we need ourselves and we are taught to ignore ourselves as completely as possible. We are evil, we are wrong, there is something wrong with us, how sad to believe.

Have a beautiful week.

Do You Know Why The Song Bird Sings?


Or


Did you ever think of blowing this Joint to go spend a year getting paid in another country to teach the English language?



The former is enlightenment the latter is anywhere between 15 to 65 US Dollars and hour.

There is a great sadness that can overwhelm, it permeates all things.
In the purest moment of samahdi, eyes wide to love; truth.

Entangled, intertwined with all things from the moment of creation,
Aware for one single instant, all the sufferings of the world; and love.

When you and I are one from the beginning, never apart.
From then on, how can you choose harm?







Please find love within yourself, follow it as a flag follows the wind or a raft follows a river. Allow it to wash away your sorrow and your pain, embrace it as a scared child embraces a parent for protection. Nurture it as a parent nurtures a child, then send it out into the world. Sing, Dance, chant, meditate, build, drive, speak, listen - all of these do with love. This is all I ask, do all with love.

Sometimes I cry because I cannot ignore the suffering I am causing by attempting to separate myself from all things, by attempting to be strong enough to take on the world, to fight my way through life to get what I want in the end. It is the most beautiful reminder, when I fight we all lose.

Sometimes I have to remind myself I Love You and that You are not my Enemy but that you are Me.

The United States of America is one of the few countries in the world where a person is required to spend less then half of their waking day producing for survival. The inhabitants of the overwhelming majority of the countries in the world spend basically sun up to sun down planting, harvesting, herding, mending, sowing, and doing everything they can to ensure they make it through the night. While, on average an American works 40 hours a week and is awake 126 hours a week, that means we have on average 86 hours a week to spend bettering ourselves, our society, our plant, et cetera. Yet on average the mass majority of Americans spend 56 hours a week watching television, leaving 30 hours, that half of which is most likely spent eating, transporting oneself, cooking/cleaning, et cetera. So that leaves at least 15 hours a week that the average American could put towards making life more fruitful but thank god we have Movie Theaters, Shopping Malls, and other Consumerist Traps to help those remaining 15 hours go to good waste.


What is the point of all this? Nothing, I am just wasting time between making brownies, doing laundry, listening to jazz, searching the internet for Gung Fu Equipment, software to learn an endangered language and how to build a recumbent bicycle.

Metta
jules

The interesting thing about the human condition is that we feel sorry for those poor souls who suffer from Dissociative Identity Disorder (multiple personalities) because we ourselves are afraid of losing control of our bodies to some thieving manifestation of consciousness, the kicker is that 99% of us gave up control of our bodies to some crazy manifestation of consciousness; IE the permanent self people identify themself as being.

We walk around all day thinking about the past and the future, about our lives and our things and our this and our that, perpetually overloading our mind with superfluous stimuli all rooted in the cause of keeping us to busy to realize we have been hijacked by a manifestation of our mind that should only exist for the sole understanding of novel information and should stop existing as soon as it is no longer needed. Even beyond this, anytime we slip back into our natural state of existence, zoning into life as one might say, we are quickly jerked back by our Egoself who convinces us to feel guilty about simply existing even when there is nothing else that needs to be done besides simply existing.

I do not know about you but I think I would be more worried about the fact that I have already been hijacked by the manifestation of the conscious mind through the egoself then that which has already hijacked me losing it's hold to another hijacker.

Metta
Jules


Edit:
I also realized what the most depressing moment in any persons life is.


The moment you realize you can live your life exactly the way you are living it, everyday, for the rest of your life. That you can potentially exist the way you are up until the end and that in those last seconds of breath you will regret that you did not take that blind free fall into the darkness instead of continuing to merely exist as a slave to yourself.

Most people have already had this moment but dismissed it as paranoia, fear of commitment, of childishness. They will continue to exist, hating, up until that last exhale when they realize.

I have come to realize there is not a lot in life when there is nothing in your life, heh. But the funny thing is that there is always something in your life, noticing it is the key.


But that has nothing to do with anything in this post.


I want to start corresponding with some of you through the mail. I think there is some sort of beautiful release in laying yourself out on a piece of paper and then sending it to another person and then having to wait for them to send it back. Some sort of cleansing in receiving the honest confessions of others. It is beautiful. It is pure honesty for just a moment. It makes confession booths look pathetic in comparison. I want people to send my secrets to and people to send their secrets to me, a pact of secrecy, a connection beyond the most basic level on which almost all of us perform every day; in and out.

My email is in my user info, send me an email if you want to play Snail Mail with me.

Beyond that I am learning the various dialects of the Netherlands. Building a hanging tent bed for camping at burning man in a year or two. Building a bicycle with a motor to save gas and get back into having awesome cardio, cause awesome cardio has so many benefits beyond better sex and the ability to run from the cops.


Love
Metta
Jules

1. The 80/20 rule.

This is one of the best ways to make better use of your time. The 80/20 rule – also known as The Pareto Principle – basically says that 80 percent of the value you will receive will come from 20 percent of your activities.

So a lot of what you do is probably not as useful or even necessary to do as you may think.

You can just drop – or vastly decrease the time you spend on – a whole bunch of things.

And if you do that you will have more time and energy to spend on those things that really brings your value, happiness, fulfilment and so on.

2. Parkinson’s Law.

You can do things quicker than you think. This law says that a task will expand in time and seeming complexity depending on the time you set aside for it. For instance, if you say to yourself that you’ll come up with a solution within a week then the problem will seem to grow more difficult and you’ll spend more and more time trying to come up with a solution.

So focus your time on finding solutions. Then just give yourself an hour (instead of the whole day) or the day (instead of the whole week) to solve the problem. This will force your mind to focus on solutions and action.

The result may not be exactly as perfect as if you had spent a week on the task, but as mentioned in the previous point, 80 percent of the value will come from 20 percent of the activities anyway. Or you may wind up with a better result because you haven’t overcomplicated or overpolished things. This will help you to get things done faster, to improve your ability to focus and give you more free time where you can totally focus on what’s in front of you instead of having some looming task creating stress in the back of your mind.

3. Batching.

Boring or routine tasks can create a lot of procrastination and low-level anxiety. One good way to get these things done quickly is to batch them. This means that you do them all in row. You will be able to do them quicker because there is less “start-up time” compared to if you spread them out. And when you are batching you become fully engaged in the tasks and more focused.

A batch of things to do in an hour today may look like this: Clean your desk / answer today’s emails / do the dishes / make three calls / write a grocery shopping list for tomorrow.

4. First, give value. Then, get value. Not the other way around.

This is a bit of a counter-intuitive thing. There is often an idea that someone should give us something or do something for us before we give back. The problem is just that a lot of people think that way. And so far less than possible is given either way.

If you want to increase the value you receive (money, love, kindness, opportunities etc.) you have to increase the value you give. Because over time you pretty much get what you give. It would perhaps be nice to get something for nothing. But that seldom happens.

5. Be proactive. Not reactive.

This one ties into the last point. If everyone is reactive then very little will get done. You could sit and wait and hope for someone else to do something. And that happens pretty often, but it can take a lot of time before it happens.

A more useful and beneficial way is to be proactive, to simply be the one to take the first practical action and get the ball rolling. This not only saves you a lot of waiting, but is also more pleasurable since you feel like you have the power over your life. Instead of feeling like you are run by a bunch of random outside forces.

6. Mistakes and failures are good.

When you are young you just try things and fail until you learn. As you grow a bit older, you learn from - for example - school to not make mistakes. And you try less and less things.

This may cause you to stop being proactive and to fall into a habit of being reactive, of waiting for someone else to do something. I mean, what if you actually tried something and failed? Perhaps people would laugh at you?

Perhaps they would. But when you experience that you soon realize that it is seldom the end of the world. And a lot of the time people don’t care that much. They have their own challenges and lives to worry about.

And success in life often comes from not giving up despite mistakes and failure. It comes from being persistent.

When you first learn to ride your bike you may fall over and over. Bruise a knee and cry a bit. But you get up, brush yourself off and get on the saddle again. And eventually you learn how to ride a bike. If you can just reconnect to your 5 year old self and do things that way - instead of giving up after a try/failure or two as grown-ups often do – you would probably experience a lot more interesting things, learn valuable lessons and have quite a bit more success.

7. Don’t beat yourself up.

Why do people give up after just few mistakes or failures? Well, I think one big reason is because they beat themselves up way too much. But it’s a kinda pointless habit. It only creates additional and unnecessary pain inside you and wastes your precious time. It’s best to try to drop this habit as much as you can.

8. Assume rapport.

Meeting new people is fun. But it can also induce nervousness. We all want to make a good first impression and not get stuck in an awkward conversation.

The best way to do this that I have found so far is to assume rapport. This means that you simply pretend that you are meeting one of your best friends. Then you start the interaction in that frame of mind instead of the nervous one.

This works surprisingly well. You can read more about it in How to Have Less Awkward Conversations: Assuming Rapport.

9. Use your reticular activation system to your advantage.

I learned about the organs and the inner workings of the body in class but nobody told me about the reticular activation system. And that’s a shame, because this is one of the most powerful things you can learn about. What this focus system, this R.A.S, in your mind does is to allow you to see in your surroundings what you focus your thoughts on. It pretty much always helps you to find what you are looking for.

So you really need to focus on what you want, not on what you don’t want. And keep that focus steady.

Setting goals and reviewing them frequently is one way to keep your focus on what’s important and to help you take action that will move your closer to toward where you want to go. Another way is just to use external reminders such as pieces of paper where you can, for instance, write down a few things from this post like “Give value” or “Assume rapport”. And then you can put those pieces of paper on your fridge, bathroom mirror etc.

10. Your attitude changes your reality.

We have all heard that you should keep a positive attitude or perhaps that “you need to change your attitude!”. That is a nice piece of advice I suppose, but without any more reasons to do it is very easy to just brush such suggestions off and continue using your old attitude.

But the thing that I’ve discovered the last few years is that if you change your attitude, you actually change your reality. When you for instance use a positive attitude instead of a negative one you start to see things and viewpoints that were invisible to you before. You may think to yourself “why haven’t I thought about things this way before?”.

When you change you attitude you change what you focus on. And all things in your world can now be seen in a different light.

This is of course very similar to the previous tip but I wanted to give this one some space. Because changing your attitude can create an insane change in your world. It might not look like it if you just think about it though. Pessimism might seem like realism. But that is mostly because your R.A.S is tuned into seeing all the negative things you want to see. And that makes you “right” a lot of the time. And perhaps that is what you want. On the other hand, there are more fun things than being right all the time.

If you try changing your attitude for real – instead of analysing such a concept in your mind - you’ll be surprised.

You may want to read more about this topic in Take the Positivity Challenge!

11. Gratitude is a simple way to make yourself feel happy.

Sure, I was probably told that I should be grateful. Perhaps because it was the right thing to do or just something I should do. But if someone had said that feeling grateful about things for minute or two is a great way to turn a negative mood into a happy one I would probably have practised gratitude more. It is also a good tool for keeping your attitude up and focusing on the right things. And to make other people happy. Which tends to make you even happier, since emotions are contagious.

12. Don’t compare yourself to others.

The ego wants to compare. It wants to find reasons for you to feel good about yourself (“I’ve got a new bike!”). But by doing that it also becomes very hard to not compare yourself to others who have more than you (“Oh no, Bill has bought an even nicer bike!”). And so you don’t feel so good about yourself once again. If you compare yourself to others you let the world around control how you feel about yourself. It always becomes a rollercoaster of emotions.

A more useful way is to compare yourself to yourself. To look at how far you have come, what you have accomplished and how you have grown. It may not sound like that much fun but in the long run it brings a lot more inner stillness, personal power and positive feelings.

13. 80-90% of what you fear will happen never really come into reality.

This is a big one. Most things you fear will happen never happen. They are just monsters in your own mind. And if they happen then they will most often not be as painful or bad as you expected. Worrying is most often just a waste of time.

This is of course easy to say. But if you remind yourself of how little of what you feared throughout your life that has actually happened you can start to release more and more of that worry from your thoughts.

14. Don’t take things too seriously.

It’s very easy to get wrapped up in things. But most of the things you worry about never come into reality. And what may seem like a big problem right now you may not even remember in three years.

Taking yourself, your thoughts and your emotions too seriously often just seems to lead to more unnecessary suffering. So relax a little more and lighten up a bit. It can do wonders for your mood and as an extension of that; your life.

15. Write everything down.

If your memory is anything like mine then it’s like a leaking bucket. Many of your good or great ideas may be lost forever if you don’t make a habit of writing things down. This is also a good way to keep your focus on what you want. Read more about it in Why You Should Write Things Down.

16. There are opportunities in just about every experience.

In pretty much any experience there are always things that you can learn from it and things within the experience that can help you to grow. Negative experiences, mistakes and failure can sometimes be even better than a success because it teaches you something totally new, something that another success could never teach you.

Whenever you have a “negative experience” ask yourself: where is the opportunity in this? What is good about this situation? One negative experience can – with time – help you create many very positive experiences.

"Sometimes you gotta let your heart lead you . . . even if you know its someplace you know you're not supposed to be."


That is so perfect, so absolutely perfect. Everyone wants me to pursue a future, to utilize my maximum potential in a professional setting. To make something of my life. To not spend my life a messed up mess. God that is so depressing of a thought. I cannot imagine living a life that is a perpetual nightmare of reaffirming everything that stifles a persons one and only chance to be themselves and enjoy it. I cannot imagine not having conversations with plastered people at late night parties. I cannot imagine not sitting and staring at a breathing wall at least once more in my life. I cannot imagine not walking around a city in the middle of the night passing out LED throwies to pitch at something giant and metal. It's style and it's class and it's a train wreck coming that never wrecks because the wreck is all in your head.

I just fell asleep writing this and woke up to see 9999999999.

It is exactly that free spirited "irresponsible" behavior that got me in this state of complete exhaustion and if you took me back and gave me a choice if I wanted to do it again I would laugh at you, shake my head and walk away. Because if you have to ask, you won't understand the answer anyway.

Some people wear hats to protect their head, others wear hats to beautify it.


SleepyXcore
jules